An end to look forward for??

Just a few more seconds to freedom, just a few more minor ticks from the clock until the end of an experience, a begining so near -just within grasp- but yet so far...

The moment all form-5-mers been waiting for. THE END OF SPM.

"But is this an end worth looking forward to?" She silently asks herself in her final minutes in the examination hall as she looks out of the window towards the dark gray rainy sky. The voices of her classmates that finished their paper and left early could be heard as clearly as a bell. She could leave the hall and touch freedom early herself, but instead, she resists temptation and chooses to stay for the last remaining minutes.

She went deep in thought as the rain drops fell to the ground,
"What now?" She asks herself as she leans on her table to face towards the open window. Just months ago she had made up her mind about her future career. About the plans that she might endure after the challenges that she faced. However, now, all that's planed doesn't look convincing at all, in fact, difficult and almost impossible -just like a child's fantasy.

"Peperiksaan telah tamat. Calon dikehendaki untuk berhenti menulis. Sila ikatkan kertas jawapan serta helaian tambahan yang digunakan bersama-sama. Kertas peperiksaan akan dikutip sekarang." The sound of the examiners voice startled her, pushing her away from her day dream. She looks around the examination hall and counted the remaining who have chosen to stay until the very last minute just like her. Only 11 students including her, the other 14 have apparently chosen an early freedom. She looks at her best friend who is looking back at her and both smiled. Showing happiness from their long -hard earned- freedom.

"Calon boleh beredar sekarang." as these words came out of the examiners mouth, the remaining students eagerly stood up, cleared their table and walked out of the class room. Their joy expressed by cheers and hugs. Many said their goodbyes with mixed emotions and many made arrangements for their ultimate shopping spree. Many talked about the joy that the end of school life would bring. But none actually saw the big picture. None bothered to think of the bigger effort that they have to put in order to go on in life. She didn't bother talking to most of them except replying their simple goodbyes. She took her time walking out of the school taking in and looking at monuments that was filled with memories -her memories- during her life there as a student. At the gate she turned back to look at the ugly bright orange coloured building for her final time as a high school student and when finally satisfied, she walked off. Leaving the life she lived and known for the past 11 years of her life. Looking forward towards the new beginnings she will have and not the ends.

Love you!!~ (16/9/09)

Dear me,

Gosh, i just have to think of a better way to start a blog other than 'dear me'. Anyways, as of today (well yesterday actually) kanye west if officially a 'jauh raja pantai'. That grumpy racist fella not only insulted Taylor Swift, he also humiliated her in front of the whole world, claiming that Beyonce should have won the 'best female video award'. Well he should be glad 'cause Beyonce's 'Single Ladies' video received the 'video of the year' award. Honestly i didn't really like Beyonce's single ladies video. Through out the whole video, the only thing that could be seen in 3 ladies in white, dancing, through out the whole video.

Another news that have to do with the VMA is Lady Gaga's performance. She is undeniably one of the best performers, nearly at the standard of Micheal Jackson. And even though she receives bad publicity because of her 'weirdness' I look up to her. She shows freedom, the artistic freedom that every individual should have. She dares to be who she is and seems unaffected by all the criticism she receives. Not many people dares to be who they really are now. In my opinion, people should not look down at people like her, instead we should learn more from em, 'cause it's the people who dare to be different that succeed in life, not the usual people who 'play-it-safe'.

So remember kids, be yourself, eat right, don't do drugs and most importantly remember to BRUSH YOUR TEETH!!~

*exam updates*
+only 1 more day to go!!+
-GAMBATEH!!-
<3love>

Sarangheyo!!~ (9/9/09)*ain't it awesome??*

Dear me,

Guess what!!~ It's 999999 DAY!!~ And also, it's the end of ALL the biology papers as well as the dreaded additional mathematics paper 2 (DAMMIT i still have paper 1!!). And since i cant find any negatives for today (except the fact that I have a potential fail in add maths and bio) i think i should be celebrating for the day. Why not right?? So basically i have, well almost sloth-ed around for the whole day. Studying NOTHING but a teeny bit of history and additional maths questions.

Anyway, time for today's events!!~

At approximately 0730 hours, in class room 5A9, three (insane) girls, specifically in alphabetical order Alexandra Lee Wei Lin, Arulselvi Francis Jacob and Chermaine Low Hui Ting, sat together and formed a 'study' group before the biology paper 1 examination. The the three that was indeed studying at moment was also joking around when one subject, Arulselvi Francis Jacob, asked a simple and plain yet silly question to the other two subjects.

The Question:
What would your name sound like if it was a combination of your parents' name?
The Answers:
Alexandra - Micbeth
Arulselvi - Fannie
Chermaine - Dorfred

THE ULTIMATE CONCLUSION:
I have the nerdiest name among all!!
teehee!!~ XD

The next even happened shortly after. 2 of the subjects, subject 1 and subject 2 (all subjects wish to remain anonymous) started to talk about Japanese food when subject 1 of took out a Japanese snack for a snack. Subject 3 heard wrongly when subject 1 said,

"I like to eat Japanese food!!~"

Never did subject three thought that her misconception would change all of their lives when eating Japanese food. The following was what subject 3 heard,

"I like to eat penis food!!~"

It was only moments later when subject 3 realized about the misconception. And so the three laughed away until the exam started.

After today eating sushi will never be the same again... Remember kids!!~ penis rhymes with Japanese!!~ Toodles!!~ Sarangheyo!!~

*exam updates*
+7 days down 6 more to go!!+
-GAMBATEH!!-
<3sarangheyo!!~<3

Sukidayo!!~ (3/9/09)

Dear me,

Finally i wrote an essay that has NOTHING to do with romance at all. Remember yesterday i said that had inspiration to write a horror story?? Well that's what i did (but it's not the one i was thinking about). And there i wrote away until the final last 5 minutes where i finally put my pen to rest on the table. Finally I've come to realize how much i could write (without any guideline) in a mere 10 minutes (nearly 1 and 1/4 pages). Anyway, I'll put that essay up at once (after i received it back from Mrs Muthu for marking) and when i have the time, the horror story i was talking about, and IF i have enough time (and if i don't feel lazy) I'll continue with the 2nd chapter of Sweet Surrender. This is enough for an update i guess, so now, time to bury my face in the 'amazing' world of chemistry and maths. Sukidayo!!~

*exam updates*
+3 days down 10 more to go!!+
-GAMBATEH!!-
<3sukidayo!!~<3

J'taime!!~ (2/9/2009)

Dear me,

Please remind myself in the future to NEVER, EVER even think of taking animal grooming as a profession. I had a really 'fun' day today shaving (actually cutting) Yufie's fur off, she's now completely bald (except her head and her tail) and looks ALOT better now and plus, her eyes look even bigger now that I've finally gotten rid of the excess fur on her snout that previously covered her eyes (Fine, fine I'm not gonna lie, she looks HORRIBLE!! But the part about her eyes is true though^^). Anyways, i think I'm getting some weird inspiration while burning some offerings to the 'good souls' (as dad refers to them) and sis (not Elise, don't ask), on writing a horror story (since it's the 7th month on the Chinese calender). So keep an eye out for my 2nd blog *winks*(link's at the side).

Now... about the English exam tomorrow, (listen well)

"I Chermaine Low Hui Ting, vow to NOT write a romance story for the essay section,"

Why??
-because i've just noticed that most of my essays are ROMANCE essays and so I'd very much like a change in my writing style for once (not that I'm very good).

Anyways, i guess I've done enough blogging for one day, better get some shut eye and get ready for tomorrow's English papers. j'taime!!~

*exam updates*
+2 days down 11 more to go!!+
-GAMBATEH!!-
<3j'taime<3>

OMG!!!! NIGAHIGA BEAT FRED!!!!!! O.O

I was going on youtube just like every other day and guess what i found out... NIGAHIGA finally beat FRED!!! Not that i hate Fred, (i'm subscribed to him too) I just like Nigahiga better. Gosh... i seriously thought that this day would never come!!

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Most of my close friends describe me as an inert person, which means I'm basically very nonreactive to stress, irritation, my surroundings and even my emotions. But the truth is, I'm not exactly as inert as anyone think I am, people see how i react, it's not much compared to others because i control myself, i can control myself very well and thus, i may seem inert, but that's not the case, i have feelings too, and when something happens, i know. I'm not blind, it's just that sometimes i choose to avoid it, i must admit, all the times i say i did not notice (well not all, just some), i actually DO notice, but i simply choose to ignore it, there's no point in acknowledging it anyway, 'cause no one actually truly bothers. In the end it all depends on you again, so what's the use of giving bigger reactions, noticing more stuff, and actually showing out my reactions? I notice, by hiding it all is when people around actually accept you and come to you, the moment you show your emotions, it's as if they're not there anymore. That's why, i seem inert. Seriously, at times a really want people to see the inner me, the more reactive and sensitive me, honestly, at times i do get a little scared. I'm afraid the one day, i may not even be able to show emotion anymore, i"m afraid that one day, I won't seem human anymore, and at the same time, I'm afraid of losing my control and my sanity as well... Will I be able to balance myself with my angry inner self? i really hope i can.
Well anyway, something about today, i went out with Edward and his friend Jeremy (now my friend as well) and guess what we did... we went GROCERY SHOPPING^^ as well as hunting for Alex's birthday prezzie and once again i was reminded on how 'gay' and vain Edward was. Gosh... well Edward, you rock^^ and remember, don't be a bitch, be an asshole!!~ ( i mean it!!)

My new blog...

Why start a new blog? Simple, it's 'cause i don't want to mix up my artwork with my daily life. It may seem weird but while making my artwork (drawing, editing or writing) I put my shoes into the shoes of my character, not me. This to anyone else may seem unimportant, but it is to me, 'cause while I'm making my artworks, I'm not myself or at least not always myself. I don't want to put pictures into others, i don't want anyone to think that I'm some kind of suicidal, mad, anti-social, queer teenager which speaks out through poetry, stories and drawings. I'm not like that at all. Even since i know nobody would ever read this, I'd still type it all out. I guess it's to prove a point to myself, 'bout what point exactly, I'm not even sure myself.

Anyways, (i don't know who the hell I'm typing to) to view my artwork, link's at he side. It's still new so there's not much in it, YET.

PEACE OUT!!~^^